In this article, I trace my childhood to doctoral-level educational experiences as a first-generation student and second-generation Filipina Canadian. I reveal my liminal position and unfixed location as a Filipina diasporic scholar, continuously searching for an intellectual or scholarly home. Here, home includes a sense of identification in different disciplines and institutions, as well as belonging to a Filipino scholarly community. I also highlight recurrent and ongoing tensions with various forms of knowledge production. I illustrate de/colonizing autoethnography as method, process, and product.

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“失败”并找到菲律宾流散的学术“家”：De /殖民化的民族志

在本文中，我将我的童年追溯到第一代学生和第二代菲律宾加拿大人的博士水平的教育经历。我揭示了自己作为菲律宾流放学者的门槛位置和不确定的位置，不断寻找知识分子或学术之家。在这里，家庭不仅具有不同学科和机构的认同感，而且还属于菲律宾学术界。我还强调了与各种形式的知识生产相关的经常性和持续性紧张关系。我以方法，过程和产品的形式展示了去殖民化的民族志学。