The centrality of personal experience plays a pivotal role in feminist scholarship. We draw on the feminist inspired collaborative inquiry research method, memory‐work, to bring to the fore our experiences of living and working in lockdown, a Government enforced policy response to the global Covid‐19 pandemic in Aotearoa New Zealand. Memory‐work provided the conduit for us to work collaboratively with our experiences and make sense of the whirlwind we lived through. Our exploration is set against the backdrop of the challenges of the conservatism endemic in the neoliberal pathway taken in NZ and its transmission into the university sector. Through our collective editing of each account generated by the phrase “her murky boundaries of lockdown” two interconnected themes came to the fore in various guises: restricted and vulnerable. Using á collective “she” and “her,” we reconstruct and analyze the nuances of our shared experiences revealing layers of gendered vulnerability paradoxically intertwined with privilege at this unprecedented time. We conclude by arguing that lockdown exacerbated already existing divisions reinforcing how female, feminist, and academic remain an uncomfortable fit.

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特权而又脆弱：共享记忆，深刻了解性别锁定

个人经验的中心性在女权主义学术中起着举足轻重的作用。我们借鉴了女权主义启发性的协作式探究研究方法，即记忆工作，以凸显我们在封锁中生活和工作的经验，这是政府针对新西兰Aotearoa的全球Covid-19大流行实施的政策措施。记忆工作为我们提供了与我们的经验进行协作并理解我们所经历的旋风的渠道。我们的探索是在新西兰采取的新自由主义途径及其向大学领域传播的保守主义地方性挑战的背景下进行的。通过对“锁定的模糊边界”一词生成的每个帐户进行集体编辑，两个相互关联的主题以各种形式出现：受限制和易受攻击。通过使用集体的“她”和“她”，我们重构和分析了我们共享经验的细微差别，从而揭示了在这个前所未有的时刻，性别脆弱性与特权相矛盾的层次。最后，我们争论说，封锁使现有的部门加剧了，这加剧了女性，女权主义者和学术界如何保持不舒服的状态。