ABSTRACT This article explores the interplay between various forms of self-measurement and affective processes in three female cancer patients’ storytelling on Instagram. It argues that self-measurement should be approached as an epistemic, relational, biopolitical and affective practice of valuation, which simultaneously produces knowledge about the self, enacts social and technological relations, reproduces bodily discourses and motivates affective modulation. In the three Instagram profiles studied, self-measurement appears to work according to two different logics: a logic of self-tracking that quantifies stages towards restitution and a logic of self-experimentation that ‘visibilizes’ bodily surface changes during illness. In terms of affect, self-tracking is primarily aimed at establishing a sense of hope – supported by encounters with followers and their displays of love and empathy – but it is also linked to frustration and fear when the goal of measurement is postponed or unreachable. Self-experimentation, on the other hand, takes part in processes that affectively relate to the aesthetically changing ill body – a mode of measurement that is less focused on temporal progression and more focused on exploring the vulnerable aliveness and changeability of the body during cancer by focusing on relations between present and past. Finally, the article discusses to what extent these two logics resonate with wider cultural and biopolitical transformations in which publicly visible and intensely circulated patient practices are increasingly those that are able to master and affectively ‘grid’ the destructiveness of illness while telling and sharing a story about it.

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情感措施：Instagram上女性癌症患者的故事叙述实践中的自我测量和网格化

摘要本文探讨了三位女性癌症患者在Instagram上讲故事时各种形式的自我测量与情感过程之间的相互作用。它认为，自我评估应作为一种认识论，关系论，生物政治学和情感上的估价实践来进行，这种实践应同时产生关于自我的知识，建立社会和技术关系，再现身体话语并激发情感调节。在研究的三个Instagram个人资料中，自我测量似乎可以根据两种不同的逻辑起作用：一种自我跟踪的逻辑可以量化恢复原状的阶段；另一种是自我实验的逻辑可以“发现”疾病期间的身体表面变化。就影响而言 自我跟踪的主要目的是建立一种希望感-在与追随者的相遇以及他们对爱情和同情心的展示的支持下-但当测量的目标被推迟或无法实现时，它也与沮丧和恐惧联系在一起。另一方面，自我实验参与了与美学上不断变化的病态情感相关的过程-一种测量模式，其较少关注时间进展，而更着重于探索癌症导致的脆弱的生命力和易变性。着眼于现在与过去之间的关系。最后，