Abstract

Inspired by Samuel R Delany’s notion that cruising is a ‘positive unconscious of knowledge’, this article explores my relationship to cruising over the last twenty years in my work as both a creative and emotional methodology. Cruising has been integral in my own realisation and continued growth into a non-binary subjecthood as a body who has struggled with questions of passing both in queer, homosexual, and neutral spaces. I focus on non-binary subjectivity as an experience connected to the materiality of the body, hypocritical desire, the politics of taking up space, and the longing for un-gendering. This essay culminates in a recollection of a performance I presented at the 2019 Bergen Biennial in Norway, where I investigated the potential of hypocritical desire through dance and text, culminating in an erotic cruising scene between myself and The Shimmer, an invisible gas that destroys everything it comes in contact with.

摘要

受塞缪尔·德拉尼（Samuel R Delany）关于巡航是“对知识的积极无意识”的观念的启发，本文探讨了我在过去20年中作为创造力和情感方法论与巡航之间的关系。巡航一直是我自己认识到的不可或缺的部分，并且继续成长为非二元主观主体，因为他一直在同志，同性恋和中立空间中通过问题而苦苦挣扎。我将非二进制主观性作为与身体的物质性，虚伪的欲望，占用空间的政治以及对性别的渴望有关的经验。本文的高潮是对我在2019年挪威卑尔根双年展上表演的表演的回忆，在那次表演中我通过舞蹈和文字调查了虚伪欲望的潜力，