ABSTRACT This paper follows the journey of a young black woman as she enters motherhood during treatment in psychoanalytic parent-infant psychotherapy with a black female therapist. The impact of the mother’s early trauma on the developing parent-infant relationship is explored through the theme of being seen. Transference and countertransference phenomena are examined. There is a particular focus on the mother’s race, sexuality and gender and their impact on her growing son. Winnicott’s attention to the use of black in the consulting room is drawn upon, to open up a discussion about some of the clinical implications regarding sameness in therapist and patient, both being black and female. Finally, the practice of video-recording sessions and what this elicits in the countertransference is also explored, providing another perspective to the theme of being seen.

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“我不想死，我想感觉更好”：通过精神分析亲子心理治疗寻找希望

摘要 本文讲述了一位年轻的黑人女性在与一位黑人女性治疗师进行精神分析亲子心理治疗期间成为母亲的旅程。通过被看见的主题，探讨了母亲早期创伤对亲子关系发展的影响。检查了移情和反移情现象。特别关注母亲的种族、性取向和性别及其对她成长中的儿子的影响。温尼科特 (Winnicott) 对咨询室中黑色的使用的关注被利用，以展开有关治疗师和患者（黑人和女性）相同的一些临床意义的讨论。最后，还探讨了录像会话的实践以及这在反移情中引发的事情，