Racism and racist fantasies are inherent to being human yet have had profound traumatic effects on an individual and collective scale. Lurking in the shadows, racist images, fantasies, and attitudes can suddenly enter the analytic space and disrupt the psychic functioning of both the analyst and patient. A personal experience with racism outside the office is presented with clinical material involving my struggle in the countertransference around racist material that is brought up by my patient. Racial enactments, playfulness, racial humor, white privilege, and political/cultural differences are discussed focusing on my countertransference reactions to the patient and her responses.

种族主义和种族主义幻想是人类与生俱来的，但对个人和集体都产生了深远的创伤影响。潜伏在阴影中的种族主义形象、幻想和态度会突然进入分析空间，破坏分析师和患者的心理功能。办公室外的种族主义个人经历与临床材料一起呈现，涉及我在患者提出的围绕种族主义材料的反移情中的斗争。讨论了种族行为、嬉戏、种族幽默、白人特权和政治/文化差异，重点是我对患者的反移情反应和她的反应。