Under the pressure of always increasing demands of publication, excessive working hours are widespread in academia. Based on an autoethnography of myself as a pregnant woman under Covid, I explore the extent of my being caught by the illusio–“being taken in and by the game” (Bourdieu & Wacquant, 1992), that prompted me to remain absorbed by the publishing game and to overwork until the very last day before giving birth to my son. I also explore how the forced deceleration induced by the maternity leave as well as the Covid confinement contributed to increased awareness and reflection thus helping me to transcend the illusio that prompted me to overwork. I also reflect to the extent of this conversion being reversible given the continued pressures of the academic context.

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Covid时代怀孕和分娩的自我民族志：超越学术界过度劳累的错觉？

在不断增加的出版需求的压力下，过长的工作时间在学术界普遍存在。基于我自己作为一名在 Covid 下的孕妇的自我民族志，我探索了我被错觉抓住的程度——“被游戏吸引和被游戏吸引”（Bourdieu & Wacquant，1992），这促使我继续专注于发布游戏并加班到最后一天才生下我的儿子。我还探讨了产假和 Covid 禁闭导致的强制减速如何有助于提高认识和反思，从而帮助我超越促使我过度工作的错觉。鉴于学术环境的持续压力，我还反映了这种转换在多大程度上是可逆的。