ABSTRACT

Child sexual abuse is present in all strata of Israeli society. However, there is scant research on the emotional experiences of non-abusing mothers after disclosure. In particular, no studies have examined the experiences of these mothers from the Jewish Ultra-Orthodox community in Israel. The current study analyzed the drawings and short narratives of 21 Israeli Ultra-Orthodox mothers to explore the effects of the disclosure of their child’s sexual abuse. A phenomenological approach was used to analyze the drawings and yielded four different phenomena: (1) squiggles that represented distress, (2) the mother-child relationship, (3) pseudo-sweet houses, and (4) split drawings. The drawings were either colorful, sweet or shallow, or alternatively were in black and white. As confirmed by the narratives, these drawings primarily expressed the negative emotions of shock, sadness, distress, guilt, and failure as mothers. While some mothers reported breaking down and that pain had permeated their daily lives others coped by dissociating the painful experience, putting up a façade of normalcy, or splitting their lives into two parts corresponding to before and after the disclosure.

摘要

儿童性虐待存在于以色列社会的各个阶层。然而，关于非虐待母亲在披露后的情绪体验的研究很少。特别是，没有研究调查过这些来自以色列犹太极端正统派社区的母亲的经历。目前的研究分析了 21 位以色列极端正统派母亲的图画和简短叙述，以探索披露孩子遭受性虐待的影响。使用现象学方法分析图纸并产生四种不同的现象：（1）代表痛苦的曲线，（2）母子关系，（3）伪甜蜜的房子，以及（4）分裂的图纸。这些画要么是彩色的、甜美的或浅浅的，要么是黑白的。正如叙述所证实的，这些绘画主要表达了作为母亲的震惊、悲伤、痛苦、内疚和失败的负面情绪。虽然一些母亲报告说自己崩溃了，并且疼痛已经渗透到她们的日常生活中，但另一些母亲则通过分离痛苦的经历，装出一副正常的外表，或者将她们的生活分成对应于披露前后的两部分来应对。