ABSTRACT

The catalyst for this self-study research was the performance of a sequence of poems at a colloquium for South African deans of education. The poems portray my interpretation of my students’ stories of physically and emotionally painful experiences at the hands of their former teachers. My intention was to show how the creative possibilities of poetic language and poetic modes could enrich teacher education practice and research. However, while reading the poems, I was conscious of a palpable sense of distress building in the room. I began to wonder if I had made an awful mistake. Later, I questioned what I could or should have done differently, and, in this article, I offer an account of my efforts to learn from this painful poetry performance. I draw on the literary arts to combine vignette, poetry, and dialogue to inquire into my lived experience. Overall, the article demonstrates how extending my reflection through conversation with others allowed me to clearly see that my task as a teacher educator and educational researcher is not to avoid communicating heartbreaking stories in an emotionally powerful poetic format. Instead, it is to try to do so in emotionally supportive and educative ways. I offer my inquiry as an exemplar of how the literary arts can enrich teacher education practice and self-study research in creative ways to engage self-critically with social responsibilities.

摘要

这项自学研究的催化剂是在南非教育学院院长座谈会上表演了一系列诗歌。这首诗描绘了我对我的学生在前任老师的身体和情感痛苦经历中的故事的解释。我的意图是展示诗歌语言和诗歌模式的创造性可能性如何丰富教师教育的实践和研究。但是，在阅读诗歌时，我意识到房间里有明显的窘迫感。我开始怀疑我是否犯了一个可怕的错误。后来，我质疑可以或应该做些什么不同的事情，在这篇文章中，我介绍了我从这种痛苦的诗歌表演中学习的努力。我借鉴文学艺术，将小插图，诗歌，和对话以询问我的生活经历。总体而言，这篇文章展示了如何通过与他人交谈来扩展自己的思考能力，使我清楚地看到，作为教师教育者和教育研究者，我的任务不是避免以情感上富有诗意的形式交流令人心碎的故事。相反，它应该尝试以情感支持和教育的方式做到这一点。我提出的询问是作为文学艺术如何以创造性的方式丰富教师教育实践和自学研究的能力，以自我批评地承担社会责任。这篇文章演示了如何通过与其他人的对话来扩大思考，使我清楚地看到，作为老师，教育工作者和研究人员，我的任务不是避免以情感上富有诗意的形式交流令人心碎的故事。相反，它应该尝试以情感支持和教育的方式做到这一点。我以文学艺术可以如何以创造性的方式丰富教师教育实践和自学研究，以批判性地承担社会责任的方式作为我的榜样。这篇文章演示了如何通过与其他人的对话来扩大思考，使我清楚地看到，作为老师，教育工作者和研究人员，我的任务不是避免以情感上富有诗意的形式交流令人心碎的故事。相反，它应该尝试以情感支持和教育的方式做到这一点。我以文学艺术可以如何以创造性的方式丰富教师教育实践和自学研究，以批判性地承担社会责任的方式作为我的榜样。