ABSTRACT This article presents an autoethnographic account of an encounter between two men – a Mexican scholar and a British artist – who met in Malta, to examine how post-colonialism influences the seemingly personal experience of erotic desire. The author, a man of indigenous descent, explores how his erotic attraction interweaved with powerful dynamics that were the product of the other man’s European cultural background. He problematizes this attraction by reflecting on the white ethnocentrism that colored his partner-seeking process. This autoethnography analyzes how European colonialism in Mexico affected not only language and religion, but also the deceivingly intimate aspect of erotic desire.

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马耳他仙人掌：欲望殖民化的自我民族志

摘要 本文介绍了在马耳他相遇的两个人——一名墨西哥学者和一名英国艺术家——之间的相遇的自我民族志描述，以研究后殖民主义如何影响看似个人的性欲体验。作者是一位土着血统的人，探讨了他的色情吸引力如何与作为另一个人欧洲文化背景产物的强大动力交织在一起。他通过反思影响他寻找伴侣的过程的白人种族中心主义来解决这种吸引力的问题。这本自述民族志分析了欧洲在墨西哥的殖民主义不仅影响了语言和宗教，而且还影响了色情欲望的欺骗性亲密方面。